~TwinS MaDDie~

语无伦次ing

2012-02-17T23:29:00.004+08:00

4th driving lesson tomorrow! ^^ I love driving on the road, it's much better than driving within the circuit. Meeting my dance clique tomorrow. I spent quite some time planning it and hopefully everything turns out right. I bet Yi Jie will talk about his army life non-stop tomorrow. Oh, please remind me that Melvin still owes me $8.85! Haha.

But,haiz...,I think I need to stop using facebook. Sometimes, I just hate facebook so so much! Hmm, I feel so sleepy now. I went to Plaza Sing with Linda to buy Annabel's birthday gift. It's so hard to buy gift for Annabel! I realise I don't really know what she likes. Sometimes, I really wonder whether I know some of my so-called "friends" well. I don't even know what I'm writing about again. I should stop jumping from one topic to another. Ohh, Angeline said she's wearing dress tomorrow because she doesn't want to under dress. Hmm, but I can only wear flats since I'm having driving lesson :( Or should I bring my wedges? But actually I want to show off my heels. Haha. Never mind, I should just wear casual and... whatsoever, 语无伦次ing!

Happy Valentine's Day!

2012-02-14T22:41:00.001+08:00

Celebrated Valentine's Day with my colleagues :D

Wear my 12cm heels today but I was forced to bend down so that I will not block the board behind :( Haha.

LOL. I just realise that this photo is super funny! It looks like Ci De's head is on Clarissa's! Hahaha! Opps :p

This is how my table looks like, with my favourite white and pink balloons! I like this 2 colours <3

And of course I love to zilian :D My zilian photo with Clarissa, the other temp staff :D

There are so many couples watching movies today! Marilyn and I was stuck between two couples again. Haha. But both of us think that watching movie together on Valentine's Day is such a waste of time for couples! They should have their romantic dinner together in a high class restaurant and count the stars together after that! Haha!

You should watch from 0:11! Heechul is so cute <3 I love him so much! Happy Valentine's Day to him! Whee~ Haha! I'm going crazy!

<3 his dance!

Siwon and Heechul! My favourite super junior members! And I always love the interaction between this two. Good brothers :D

Meeting my dearest dancers this coming Saturday! Everything is settle except the gifts. Can't wait to meet all of them and of course Yi Jie's botak head! It's so hard to contact him because he is so busy and can only message me at night. Phew~ But everything is fine now.

2012-02-09T22:35:00.002+08:00

I think I'm super unlucky after Chinese New Year :( Usually I feel happy at work but everything changed. Everything is just not right. Complaint to a few friends and I think Melvin's advice is probably the best. I realise he matured a lot, the way he thinks is far more insightful. He can still bully me and tease me but when it comes to giving advice,I think he is someone whom I will probably approach. Hope he will reply whenever I have problems :p

Anyway, my schedule is packed! Dinner with Marilyn tomorrow night, visiting NJCD and meeting my classmates on Saturday, driving lesson on Sunday, movie with Marilyn on Valentines' Day and shopping with Angeline on Wednesday! Hehe! 20th lonely Valentines' Day but I've got great friends around to share the LOVE!

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2012-02-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

I guess I will never post what I've written just now. Or maybe I will, probably after a long time, because I know people are reading my blog and nothing is private. I don't want anybody to know I feel. People are so inquisitive nowadays and I admit I'm one of them too. If you have been reading my blog, you probably knows what I'm thinking and what's bothering me(or probably no one actually knows since I love to jump topics). Shouldn't think so much since everything is over and yeah, I should be looking for better ones. I'm wondering why there is no good and suitable guys around. Haha.

Yi Jie's SMS

2012-02-07T22:21:00.001+08:00

Haha. Just received Yi Jie's message from army! His reply is so short but at least he replied :D He said he's super busy in NS. Aw, I miss them so much! I was smsing Angeline a few hours ago too. I told her how much I miss all of them. Meeting them on 18 Feb but it's still 10 days away! Aw~ How?? I'm so so so used to meeting them every week and talk to them whenever I feel sad. Haiz... I really miss them a lot!!

无题

2012-02-07T22:05:00.001+08:00

也许沉默是最好的选择。。。

有时我真的受够一切一切。。。

怀念，怀念那时单纯简单的我们。

当然，现在的我们还是如此，但是遇见的人却比我们想象中的还复杂。

我太高估自己了，不应该如此容易就卸下自己的保护层。

我真的太傻太天真，以为我可以像对他们一样对别人。

从现在开始，要学会做一个懂得保护自己的女人。

再也不要为了这些小事而哭了。

随笔

2012-02-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

不喜欢，就不要给那个人假希望。
不喜欢，就不要对那个人那么好。
不喜欢，就不要常常主动发短讯，主动上网聊天，主动要求单独吃饭。
我发现我真的不能在凌晨独自听着那些音乐，因为这只会让我沉浸于回忆里。
酸甜苦辣，那时候发生的种种事情也许只有我们自己知道吧。
虽然早就放下了，不过每当我不经意想起时，总有点说不出的感觉。
也许开心过，不过其实那段时间才是我最难熬的时候吧。
有时，一旦付出感情，就很难收回了。
在你眼前的东西，摸得到，却不属于你，这不叫人痛苦吗?
一个人的心，真得很难摸透。
你以为那个人给你了一线希望，后来才得知那些所谓只有对你有好感才会做的事其实什么都不是。
有时我真的觉得自己很厉害，能伪装那么久。
付出了却什么都没有得到，还要装着什么事都没有发生过，什么感情也没有付出过。
咳，有时候我真的不知道我自己在想什么。

我期待爱情却又害怕接触它。
爱一个人和被一个人爱，我可能还是选择前者。
那是痛苦的，但是好过两个人一起痛苦。
我又在这里乱写一统了。。。

最近在读张小娴的书，但是好像很多人都不知道她是谁。
喜欢她的一些语录。也许她所写的一些爱情是黑暗的，但是读一下也无妨。

“因为有所期待，才会失望。”
“有什么方法可以把另一个人忘记呢？只有用时间和距离。”
“放弃一个很爱你的人并不痛苦；放弃一个你很爱的人，那才痛苦。爱上一个不爱你的人，那时同样的痛苦。”

所以，我不会像对我这样的人一样对待其他人。不喜欢就是不喜欢，语气或许很冷淡，但总好过玩暧昧，伤害人家。

2012-02-03T19:23:00.001+08:00

I think I'm crazy because I wear my 12cm heels to work everyday. Yes, you can take out a ruler to see how high it is. But I still think it's not high enough, haha. I went shopping last Sunday and bought another 10.5cm heels. I think I got 高跟鞋控，which means too obsess with heels. And wait, I bought 5 dresses within a few weeks!! I think I need to save up and stop spending my money. I bought a shirt for my dad and a top and bracelet for my mum! Earning and spending my own money just feel so great! Hahaha! And I'm getting my pay soon! :)

14阿哥！

2012-01-31T21:26:00.001+08:00

Finished watching 《步步惊心》and I still prefer 14阿哥 more than the rest. A handsome and talented actor, 林更新confirm will 红遍中国！:D

Feel so sian of work recently. No motivation, nothing much to say during lunch break, stare at the computer the whole day etc. The only thing that can cheer me up is when my colleagues do something 贴心。I still prefer spending time with my dancers. Being bullied by Melvin and Yi Jie on Saturday but I cannot deny the fact that I actually enjoy it. I mean I just feel so relax around them and I can forget about everything that bothers me.

I'm off to watch 'We got married', just finished watching the first episode of '4 in love'! ^^

P.S. Hope to see Yi Jie's botak soon! Haha!

P.P.S. Looking forward to my first driving lesson on Sat! Hopefully won't get scolded by the instructor!

P.P.P.S. Dreamed of Heechul last night and he looks exactly like the photo below. I still chatted with him in English and I walked so close to him! Haha! And first time singing his song in front of the dancers although I only know "Ha ha haha", "Sorry Sorry Sorry","Simple simple simple love~" Haha! They laughed at me some more >.<

2012-01-26T13:39:00.001+08:00

So lazy to update my blog although I have lots to update about. From counting down together on new year eve with dancers to getting full marks for my BTT. From having reunion dinner with the dancers to our farewell party for Yi Jie. So many things to update right. I'm such a lazy pig. Should update about everything soon. But I'm having a date with my bestie tomorrow and sat is Yi Jie's farewell party. Hmm, see when I'm free bah.

2011-12-31T16:21:00.001+08:00

This will be my last post for 2011 because I'm going out soon. This year is one of the best year. I think I changed a lot this year, becoming more outspoken, outgoing and less shy. I'm really glad to know all my friends and colleagues. My colleagues are so cute :D But I think I'm cuter! Haha. Laughing non-stop yesterday during lunch and Choon Wei said people in AP(Account Payable) all weird weird de. Hahaha. I have lots of fun hanging out with them! They are so nice that I don't feel like leaving the company le (Okay, still 6 more months to go). I guess I learn a lot of things this year: how to make the right decisions and choice, be more open-minded, 学会拿得起放得下。

我承认当初发生过一些我自己也不太清楚的事，不过最重要的是我也很快就学会放下它。还好现在什么都恢复平静了，希望就这么下去。希望每个人都能找到自己的幸福！希望Wendy快点出嫁！最近我们一直都在催她！嘻嘻！

Okay, I don't even know what I'm writing right now. I just hope our friendship can last forever! Whee~ Going to Yewtee to play badminton and then probably count down at some 24/7 shop. I should update more next year! Haha. And I realise I will only meet my parents next year! Hahaha! Happy New Year!

2011-12-29T21:45:00.001+08:00

Haiz... I was quite sad today because i made some mistake during work and my superviser sort of scolded me :( Suddenly feel the stress and I understand how jolyn feel le. You know almost all my colleague in my department work until 9 plus every day? That's crazy right. Wendy look so cui today. She was so stress that she has no appetite. :( Sometimes, I just feel so useless because I can't even do simple stuff, but on the other hand, then can't expect too much from a newbie right. Received a few miss call from Yi Jie so I called him and shun bian complain to him about how stress I am. But he ended up suan-ing me instead:( But okay lar, at least he was willing to listen to my complains. After that I took mrt with my colleague and the two guys are super funny lor. I was complaining to Lydia about the lift incident and what happened today morning. Guess what? Lydia told them and they tried to explain to me! So cute right? Haha:) I guess my colleague give me the motivation to continue instead of giving up:) looking forward to tomorrow and Saturday! Can't wait to meet them!! Oh, and Yi Jie admit he was super bored that day because I was sitting super far from them and no chance to talk to them :) hehe:) I'm quite important in the clique right!! Hope that I can count down with them on new year eve leh. Really really hope so!!:)

2011-12-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

Friday's dinner was okay bah. I guess we still prefer going out as our own clique?? I was quite pissed off during the dinner but I don't feel like elaborating about it here. My colleagues gave me lots of food (especially chocolate) for Christmas and I was super touched! I gave some sweets and chocolate to Melvin they all but there are still lots in my fridge now. I was not very happy with Yi Jie because he didn't reply my message (okay, I admit I'm a bit childish) so all of us refused to sms him or talk to him. Hahaha. And he was so bored without us talking to him lar :p And of course I managed to make him apologise to me! Wahahaha! I realise how bored the guys can be without me talking to them (haha, I know I'm a bit thick-skinned). Yi Jie and Melvin ended up playing hangman and Tic Tac Toe! Poor thing right? Haiz... Only I can entertain the two of them lor :p Going to sleep soon. I'm still thinking whether I should attend the party organised by my department on Thursday....

2011-12-22T22:36:00.000+08:00

Quick update! My colleagues are so cute :D Enjoy my lunch break with them. They made me ran with my heels today because we were late. Haha. But like what they said,it's quite 刺激。Today is Jolyn's last day! She's such a young and beautiful mummy :D It's nice talking to her, but there is no chance anymore :(( Slowly getting used to all the admin stuff. Thanks Helen for being such a patient superviser! Haha, I keep asking her lots of question. :p And I love my job because of my wonderful and super cute colleagues :D

2011-12-18T18:35:00.000+08:00

Okay, I should blog about what happened these few weeks.

I really really want to thank this group of people for always being there whenever I need them the most. I've repeated this over and over again in this blog but still, they really play a big role in my life. Think about it, do you have any friends who will plan a surprise birthday celebration during the midst of A level? Do you have any friends who you will meet at least once a week? Do you have any friends who will SMS you when you are taking the MRT train alone? I'm so blessed to have them. Joining NJCD is one of the best choice I've made in my life. Haha. This sound a bit exaggerated but it's true. Sometimes, I just feel amazing that we've become so close to each other. Dance will not be so fun without them and they have definitely helped me out in my academic as well.

I've always want somebody to surprise me during my birthday because it's just so sweet. And my wish come true that night, with them singing Happy Birthday song for me in front of the public, giving me that human size(3/4) bear, the super touching card and the cake. It was really a wonderful night with all of them there. Haha. I think it's the only time when all 8 of us are together. We walked from Dhoby Ghaut to Somerset and chatted about all sort of stuff. Really love that night<3 Ohh, Yi Jie was there too! I was a bit surprised by that because I thought he would be mugging at home. Haha.

Of course we won't forget Yi Da's birthday. We surprised him on his birthday! That was another great day spent with them. We played Wii at Play Nation and PK with Melvin at the arcade. 5 versus 1 but we still lost to Melvin. Haha.

We also organised a "farewell party" for Yi Da on 3rd December. In the end, he was the one finding the cheap place to sing karaoke. It was really very cheap, less than $10 per person on weekend! But the place is super ulu and we walked until very sian. :p My mood changed drastically within a few hours on that day. I was the messenger so I mass sent the SMS from Yi Da to the others. However, Yi Da kept changing the venue so I ended up being blamed by Yi Jie and Melvin. At least Melvin is just complaining but Yi Jie was very 过分! My mood was totally affected by him and I felt so委屈!It's not even my fault, I was merely passing down the message. Haiz... I complaint to Yi Da and they ended up 作弄me again. But they never fail to cheer me up when they tease me. Haha. I think it's our way of communicating. 3 hours of singing session is way too short for me but we had lots of fun fooling around. We ate dinner at the food court and went to McDonald to play Truth or Dare. They've nothing much to ask me because I always tell them what I think.

We met again last Friday for the Senior Farewell Party. I was super busy the whole day. I went for the interview in the morning and went all the way to orchard to sign my contract before meeting the rest at Botanic Garden. I was in the same team as Jin Sze and Linda but the three of us were super slack. After we got caught by the juniors, the few of us just ate the food prepared by the juniors and gossiped happily. After everything ended, Jin Sze, linda and me went to Jurong Point because we all didn't feel like going home. We sat at the carpark and continued to gossip about random stuff. The three of us were supposed to wait for Yi Jie to come down to Jurong Point because he went home to change but he took super long. Jin Sze went home after that while Linda and me continued to wait for this 大少爷. We ate dinner together and walked around the mall to help Yi Jie find a gift for his mum's birthday. I thought of a fabulous gift for his mum-Metro Voucher! Haha. I'm so smart right. So Yi Jie and me took MRT to Causeway point and bought the voucher. I never know Yi Jie is so filial. :p

Yesterday was the Mahjong session at Yi Jie's house. I love the Yoshi! It's so CUTE! I keep carrying it around the house and hugging it when we were playing Mahjong. :DD I thought Yi Jie is super pro in Mahjong and Daidi but actually he isn't. If I didn't go help him, he will continue to be an asshole when we were playing asshole Daidi. Haha. And the ultimate winner is Angeline!赌神！！

Aw, I love the Yoshi!

<3<3<3 Love them a lot. Hehehe!

Working 5 days a week, 9.5 hours a day make me miss them more than anything. 1 week is like 1 year for me. Haha. Gonna meet them soon! Whee~

2011-12-12T20:33:00.001+08:00

I'm blogging from my iPhone now. So many things happened this few weeks! I want to update everything but I don't think I have the time. I guess I can only elaborate more on Friday night or weekends le. One good news is that I've found a job! I'm working at the sph right now as temporary admin assistant. Today's my first day of work and I think the job is quite cool. I'm going to work for 6 months until June. This means that I can only meet my friends during the weekends. :( But it's okay, I'm going Yi Jie's house this Saturday! Whee~ I'm going with others of course:p Ahyo, I'm such a noob cos I can't type properly using iPhone. I should update more about last Friday soon:)

2011-12-07T23:27:00.001+08:00

People, don't ever step into sales industry! Please believe me, especially those innocent girls! They will brainwash you and persuade you to enter the company. The company spend 3 hours just to persuade me and my friend to enter the company! I almost agree to attend the training the next day but I still feel suspicious about the company. I secretly remembered the company's name before I left and google it as soon as I reached home. Guess what? The company has a bad reputation. They will ask you to sell the products to your friends and family and they charge the product at a super high price. I seriously hate these people. They cheat those aunty and uncles' money leh! And they are either brainwashed by other or force themselves to believe how good their products are. The worst thing is that my friend is already brainwashed by them. I don't know what to do. Most of them ask me to just pretend that nothing has happened because my friend will not listen to what I said. Haiz... How sia?

Super Junior - Super Man + Mr. Simple

2011-11-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

Super Junior's performance is awesome! Omg, feel like crying when they performed! It's a live show in Singapore! So close yet so far. I swear I will attend their concert as soon as Heechul is out of the army. Miss Heechul a lot! If he's there, the performance will be even better. Update more about everything 2mrw.

2011-11-28T23:25:00.001+08:00

I swear it's hard to please everyone.
I don't know what I should do.
Feel so lost....
I think I make the right choice to go home straight away after Chemistry MCQ to watch MAMA. I should stay away from everyone and just enjoy myself in my own world.
Everything is so complicated and I seriously don't know how to handle the situations.
Feel so helpless and yet, no one is there.
I shall find a job soon, probably with Marilyn, so that I can avoid all those stuff.
My basic theory test for driving is on 11 Jan, so after A level, I still need to mug for my driving test.
I can't wait to drive around Singapore...

I should switch off my phone or just throw it inside my bag.
Is it a good thing to reply sms damn fast?
What's the point of doing those stuff?
Okay, I don't even know what I'm talking about now.
Hopefully my chem will not be affected by what happened today.

So what if Heechul is not with SuJu right now? He's still my one and only motivation.

2011-11-27T23:55:00.001+08:00

Super Junior is in Singapore now! Whee~~ SO excited!

Whee~~~

I shall sleep soon. 2 more papers only! Oh, and guess what, I think I did about 20 mcq papers within 3 days! Ah, so sick of those questions already!

2011-11-26T01:13:00.001+08:00

有时后，我真的不明白。
原本是光明正大，开开心心的事情，
却因为一些因素而要弄得好像在做什么偷鸡摸狗的事。
什么事都不可以说，不可以写。。。
这样的人生会快乐吗？
还好，这种事很快就会过去了。。。

Hmm, at least there are still Heechul and baby who can cheer me up! ^^

4 more days and I will be able to see Super Junior on TV! I can't believe that they are coming! I feel so excited! And I love baby! They said it's a she but I still prefer it to be a he. I love hugging it and I always carry it around the house. Haha. Even my parents love hugging it :D

【那些年，我們一起追的女孩】電影主題曲《那些年》官方正式MV

2011-11-26T00:46:00.000+08:00

【那些年，我們一起追的女孩】電影主題曲《那些年》
演唱：胡夏／作曲：木村充利／作詞：九把刀

又回到最初的起點
記憶中妳青澀的臉
我們終於來到了這一天
桌墊下的老照片
無數回憶連結
今天男孩要赴女孩最後的約

又回到最初的起點
呆呆地站在鏡子前
笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結
將頭髮梳成大人模樣
穿上一身帥氣西裝
等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光
回到教室座位前後　故意討妳溫柔的罵
黑板上排列組合　妳捨得解開嗎
誰與誰坐他又愛著她

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想擁抱妳　擁抱錯過的勇氣
曾經想征服全世界
到最後回首才發現
這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴妳　告訴妳我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳
緊緊抱著妳

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爱情这东西真的不是随随便便就可以碰的。

错过的爱情的却会留下遗憾，

但是如果当时真的在一起了，

这种感觉就不会那么深了吧。

以前，我一直很天真，

认为世界上只有那么一个真命天子。

但后来我发现其实爱情中最重要的还是如何维持吧。

从友情到爱情到最后变成亲情。

说实话，有多少情侣能一直维持那份激情呢？

到最后，每个人只是想找个能一起度过一辈子的人。

就像沈佳宜说的，爱情最美好的是在它暧昧的时候，很多事如果一说出来，也许就会改变。

所以说嘛，其实那个年龄，就算没在一起，但那回忆却是非常值得令人回味的。

也祝福每对恋人都可以长长久久。

记得珍惜眼前人，不管是家人，友人还是情人。

不要等到失去了才知道后悔。。。

爱情，还是值得让人去期盼的。。。

2011-11-25T13:35:00.001+08:00

读了几个朋友的blog以后，我发现他们跟我的差别。

比起他们，我的想法可以说是比较幼稚的吧。

有点天真，有点傻。

什么开心的，难过的，生气的统统都摆在脸上，

心里面有什么不爽的全都说出来。

而有些人，表面上很开心，无忧无虑的，但原来心里有那么多心事。

至少我的blog不是关于开心的事，就是关于我的偶像的。

难过得时候，读着自己所写的文章，至少心情会好一点吧。

当然，有些人把blog当成是发泄情绪的管道，

只是霎那间有那种想法。

至于我，还是会继续写一些开心的东西吧。

我不会隐藏任何情感，

也许这是我所谓保护自己的方法吧。

所有东西都说出来，心情更舒畅吧。

2011-11-23T23:13:00.001+08:00

这几天真得很开心。

在低潮的时候，他们拉了我一把。

在寂寞的时候，他们给了我温暖。

伤心时，他们聆听，他们慰问。

开心时，一起大笑，一起发疯。

从小的愿望实现了，除了感动，还是感动。

霎那间，真的有点感动得想哭。

真的觉得自己很幸福。

被人疼的感觉真的很好。

很多感情不是言语能表达的，

我想说，我真的感觉到了。

一边看着《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》，

一边想着周围的每个人。

电影拍得真得很贴切，好像每个人物都是为了我们而写的。

好希望我们能像电影里面的人物一样，一起参加所有朋友的婚礼，并一起回忆高中两年里的酸甜苦辣。

遗憾的是男女主角没有在一起。

不知道为什么，最后那段让我哭得稀里哗啦的。

相爱，却错过了对方。

但也许就是因为这样，那些年的回忆才显得更加珍贵吧。

Happy Birthday!

2011-11-19T23:19:00.001+08:00

Seriously hate the fact that I'm having my birthday during the A level period. Don't really feel like celebrating even though my parents insist to buy a cake and celebrate with me. And I'm lazy to reply those birthday messages on facebook. Haha. :p Actually I prefer receiving sms, so if you know me well enough, you should have done that. Oh, and Angeline's message was super touching.

Started my day by listening to Super Junior's songs and I want to end the day by watching their videos. I was watching this video and they are just so cute. They planned a surprise birthday celebration for Eun Hyuk by 整他during the whole show. Poor Eun Hyuk, he's so 委屈.

Anyway, I didn't study much today. Angeline and Yvonne said that I should just enjoy my birthday and chiong all the way tomorrow. Haha. Okay, so I should spend the last 25 min slacking and go back to study after the clock strike 12am bah.

Oh, another good news is that Super Junior is coming to Singapore! This is such a wonderful news! And the MAMA is held on 29th November which is the last day of my exam! I promise I will chiong home to catch the show which will start at 4pm. I'm super excited about this! Even though my dear Hee Chul is unable to attend, there is still Siwon and Dong Hae :D I hope that they can get all the 4 awards they've been nominated! :D

I guess Super Junior is my only motivation right now. Watching their shows just make me smile :D

Siwon is super hot here :D

Heechul :D He is 29 already, but he still look so young

Looking forward to next week. Hopefully I can watch 《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》。All the best for A level!

My laoba so cute, he said this to me, "你考砸了，我就养你一辈子。"

Alright, maybe I should find a prince charming to 养我一辈子soon. Hahaha. But now 我眼里只有希澈leh.

2011-11-16T23:47:00.001+08:00

Arghh! I think I screwed up all the papers I did this week. Physic Paper 2 is so straightforward and easy but I lost 8 marks already! Economic Paper 1 is okay but I didn't finish explaining negative externalities. Chemistry Paper 2 is really not manageable at all!! Who say it's easy? Not at all! Lost 10 marks because I don't know how to do question 3. Shit. I bet I can't get an A for chemistry le :( Marilyn is more worried about her Chemistry than me. She told me that if she get C for her chemistry, she might consider retaking A level next year. I think she thinks too much le. Haiz.. Hopefully miracle will happen and I will get the result I want. Or should I lower my expectation? Arghh!!

This photo makes me so hyper! Siwon and Heechul - two of my favourite super junior members!

Short post

2011-11-11T13:48:00.001+08:00

Finally GP and Math is over!! But chemistry paper 3 is damn hard. I still can't believe that I chose both question 2 and 3 instead of 4! I think I will get single digit for both question 2 and 3. :( GP is okay lar because I did similar essay before. Math is manageable. Both Melvin and I think that yesterday's paper is easier than today leh. 7 more papers to go! Jia You everyone :D

Oh, I feel a bit bad that I'm spending more time with Angeline and Melvin they all as compare to my friends in my class. Haiz... But they really help me a lot during the study days. I met up with them at least once a week to clear all my doubts... 走一步看一步吧。

I miss Heechul... He is still so cute :D

Happy 6th Anniversary to Super Junior!

2011-11-07T02:58:00.002+08:00

Yeah, I'm a bit late because it's 7th November already. But still, happy 6th anniversary to my Super Junior! :D They're quite important to me especially during this period of time. They never fail to cheer me up whenever I feel stressful or depressed. Everyone should go and watch "Explorers of the human body". It might sound like some educational show (actually it is), but the members of Super Junior are super funny. I love their songs too! Like "No Other", "Mr Simple", "U", "Superman" etc. Arghh, I should go sleep soon. Everyone is mugging for chemistry or sleeping right now but I'm typing how wonderful Super Junior is. -.-" But I still want to say: I love Super Junior!! Especially my Heechul too! Miss him a lot.

Heechul is super cute :D <3 him

2011-10-31T23:21:00.003+08:00

真的有可能挨过这关吗？
为什么我总觉得我不可能做到的？
我不想失败，不想6年前的事情再次重演。
读了12年的书不就是为了这刻吗？万一，万一，万一做不到怎么办？
是我想太多了吗？
其实我真的很害怕。。。
有时，真的觉得自己很缺乏安全感。
我不应该逃避，不应该麻痹自己。
我好想哭，大声地哭出来。原来我比自己想象中的还脆弱。。。

They give me motivation

2011-10-31T00:16:00.000+08:00

I miss Marilyn a lot! She sms me today and we chatted about lots of random stuffs. She's the rare few who can make me laugh just through a sms and the only person who knows all my secrets and personal stuff. Haha. We promise to apply jobs together after A level! Really hope that we can have more time together, I have lots of things to update her about.

Oh, that day we were talking about the things we want to do after A level and the guys were super funny. What "跳楼", "被车撞", "裸跑" etc. Wah, I seriously don't know what they are thinking lor. Perhaps they are too stress. Haha.

Haiz... I really hope this one month can end quickly. Jia You! Fighting!

P.S. I should stop slacking and start mugging!

Ohh, Hee Chul is still so cute <3 I miss him a lot :D

2011-10-11T22:55:00.004+08:00

I'm too lazy to update anything :p

Basically, I did badly for prelim and I feel super lost now. I don't know what should I do to improve my result. I think I've put in a lot of effort le :( Yah, I should be aware that there are people who are working twice as hard as me. Haiz...

Received Yida's letter and it was so funny that I laughed out loud while reading the first sentence. It was quite touching too:D And Evelyn's Kangaroo soft toy really make my day because it's so cute :D In conclusion, I love to receive letters and soft toys. :D

A lot of things to update but I'm just too lazy to do so. Should have a proper post after A level.

I will end my short post with Heechul's photo!

2011-09-21T22:59:00.003+08:00

Shit, I know I should stop using the internet, stop watching all the videos on youtube/youku and stop looking at his photos! Argh! But Heechul oppa is too attractive! Hahaha. I realise Super Junior is really an awesome group, so bonded and they really love each other. :D But Heechul oppa is in the army now :( So sad. I miss him already.

He can be very cool,

innocent and cute,

sexy and attractive,

and pretty!

He is the only guy that I think looks good with long hair and fringe, and the only guy that can look so pretty! Oh, I love his eyes too :p OMG, if I continue to talk about him, I will sound like a 色女. Haha! But I still keep showing his photos to my friends because he is just sooo awesome :D

[HD] Super Junior Heechul - Mr Simple Compilation + Cuts

2011-09-15T14:30:00.000+08:00

Hee Chul is so charming. Hahaha

Siwon so cute!

2011-09-05T00:21:00.003+08:00

Choi Siwon is so cute and 帅！Haha!!

Haha! SO cute :D

Oh, and he can sing really well! ♥♥♥

Dance~

2011-08-29T23:04:00.004+08:00

I just wanna say that I really enjoyed these three days. :D It's great to spend time with people I like :D Haha. I made a collage with some of the photos and it's now my desktop background :D Love it a lot! So now I can see them whenever I switch on my laptop.

I had posted all the photos on facebook so I don't think I will post it here :p And I should write in point form instead.

COLOURS AWARD

Met up with Melvin and Angeline at AMK hub on Friday and we went to school together.
Saw Mel's girlfriend! Haha!
After we reached the school, we waited for the rest at the canteen extension.
Shermain hugged me in the toilet! Aww! She's so sweet :D
Started to zipai with Xixi, Mel and Yida after we found our seats.
The speech by GOH was super boring and we started to fool around (as usual). We started to poke each other, took random photos (Yida is a super BAD photographer!) and stupid Mel almost pull out my heels!!!
Photo taking session after the event.

D.ECAGON

Met up with Melvin and Angline at AMK hub again. Haha.
Took 165 to Clementi and we talked about lots of stuff (I'm amazed by the amount of things we can talk)
Bought fake flowers for Miss Ng and Wu lao shi and a sunflower for Huang laoshi. I think HLS was quite happy that he got a flower! Haha.
Bullied by Mel again while we were window shopping! He is still so childish! Haiz.... (*shake head*)
Oh, and his shoes 破一个大洞already. Ahyooo.
The dustbin and rubbish joke :D (Haha, only Amie and me understand it :p)
We sat at the third row and it was soooo near to the stage!
I love the performance! But wls looked very tired :(
Su lao shi is shuai man! Haha! 很有型！
Took an unglam photo of Mel and he almost wanted to use the plastic bag to 套my head! Ya, so you can see some unglam photos of me on facebook now. :p

Miss Ng's FAREWELL DINNER

Met up with Jin Sze at Orchard Mrt. (Ya, finally not Melvin le! :p)
Haha! Mel was seating right next to dustbin and he was chased away by the cleaner! "啊?坐在垃圾桶旁边也会被赶走啊？" Haha.
We sat at separate tables so my group didn't have much chance to talk to Miss Ng :(
Took photos with Jin Sze and Mel after we finished our dinner.
Chatted with Mel and I know lots of his stuff now. Wahahaha! I realise both of us can talk nonstop :D Haha! No wonder we are good friends! :)
Miss Ng cried while watching the video. Aww, I will miss her a lot!
Took MRT with Esther and Mel and they made me ran for the train with my heels!! I guess Esther will never ever want to take MRT with us again because we embarrassed her in the MRT again (Yes, I feel sorry for her too:p)

Love them a lot! I'm glad to know them, they really make my life more interesting. :DD

2011-08-24T13:41:00.002+08:00

Wah! Just received a good news! One of my best friends is in a relationship le. Wahahaha! Feel so happy for him lar :D Finally 有人要他了！:D

2011-08-21T23:02:00.002+08:00

突然好想念王老师。。。他瘦了好多哦，不过他好像很享受在台湾的日子。真替他开心。每个人都有自己的梦想，看到自己尊敬的老师一步步朝着自己的梦想前进，真的很开心。也许他都忘记有我这个学生了吧，不过真得不要紧。只希望他能永远幸福开心！:D

2011-08-19T23:05:00.002+08:00

Looking forward to next week! Of course it's not because of prelims but it's because I'm able to spend time with my dance mates :D They never fail to cheer me up every time I'm depressed but sometimes the guys will irritate me lar. Haha.

It's always great to see them around the school, even a 'hi' will make my day :D Sometimes, I will be amazed by how close the few of us have become. Just one year ago, we were like strangers to each other (okay, a bit exaggerated but I really didn't know them very well). Even though we are from the same CCA, we didn't really talk much then (except from some lar). It's true! I always don't know what to say to Yi Da when I see him last time because he's always so serious (LOL). I never said 'hi' to Melvin at all for the whole of last year! I will even pretend not to see him because he always look to fierce and unfriendly (and he said he didn't even know our names then)! As for Yi Jie, I can't even remember when was the first time I talked to him (I don't remember talking to him last year :p). As for the girls, I think it's not as bad as the guys. Haha. But I'm definitely closer to Xixi as compared to last year. :D

Who knows one year later, whenever we see each other, we can talk crap, gossip, complain and bully each other. :D The number of times I went out with them this year is much more than my classmates! Haha. But I always have a lot of fun with them :D

I was telling my friends that I will confirm cry on graduation day! I will miss them! 他们陪我度过我最困难的时候，在我最需要他们的时候，他们不离不弃的在我身边。一起笑过，一起哭过。没有他们，我的生活应该会很枯燥吧！:p

2011-08-12T22:14:00.001+08:00

I need privacy! And suddenly, math and chemistry become so foreign to me...

2011-08-01T00:11:00.002+08:00

I always like to think a lot at night. It's not a good thing. But I guess I always forget about the unhappy stuff the next day. Oh, and I don't think I will update much now since I'm soo busy! So much things to do but with only so little time! Stress to the max lor. Twitter is more fun! Haha. At least I like to read other people's tweets. And I guess it becomes a routine for me to read hers everyday. It's like watching a drama...

2011-07-24T22:08:00.002+08:00

OMG, there are just so many things to do! I don't even know where to start from. Xiong Hao said the math revision package cost $20 per person, which means that it's like 400 pg? Argh! And there is Chemistry test and Physic test on Tuesday and Thursday respectively, GP clinic on Monday, GP consultation with Miss Kaur and dance on Wednesday, stock check on Thursday and Friday (probably asking the juniors to do it, I seriously need the time to mug!). On top of that, I still need to write personal and CCA testimonial, start revising for economic, search content for GP, do math and chemistry revision package, do physic prelim papers from different schools. Oh My 天! Look at the amount of workload! I want to roll on the floor and cry!

I'm so looking forward to National Day holiday so that I can go out and shop like crazy! And maybe Wu lao shi's concert since I'm going with the dancers and it's directly after the end of our first few prelim papers. Argh! I just can't wait it to be over so that I can do whatever I want.

Oh yah, Xiao Yang make my day today! Haha! She make me laugh like crazy in front of my laptop :D Love her a lot! :D

I guess I'm still struggling but it's going to end soon. It's fading, and I can't feel anything anymore.

2011-07-22T23:17:00.002+08:00

"身边的人那么多，懂自己的有几个。不要对我说，我是个好人，我很可爱，我很活泼。我只是个，会自卑，会伤心，会小心眼的普通人。其实，我很好，只是不习惯，只是会偶尔难受一下，只是会在某一瞬间突然很想某个人，只是会在听到某一句熟悉的话时很难过。。。"

"天蝎座的人时而很极端，时而很忧伤，时而很脆弱，不过，他们大部分时间表现出来的是坚强。天蝎座的人欲望强烈，一旦心中怀有某个梦想，就会极力的想要去实现它，并且是刻不容缓的采取行动，努力进取，奋斗不懈，坚忍力令人瞠目。所以在很多人的眼中，天蝎座是极有野性的星座。"

"天蝎是只知奉献不计后果的动物，热情坦诚，有时任性，傻乎乎的；它是世界上最喜欢晒太阳却不在太阳底下睡懒觉的动物；强烈的好奇心使它喜欢被禁忌的东西。它的世界充满了神奇。它一直在做自己喜欢做的事，不喜欢改变自己的行为方式。"

"学习，要耐得住寂寞；恋爱，要经得起考验；婚姻，要懂得维护；成长，要靠逐步地积累；成功，要受得了煎熬；做人，须经得起风雨；幸福，要懂得珍惜；烦恼，要学会忘记。 "

"沉默，是一个女人最大的哭声。女人有心事后，不想多说，感觉说话很累，或许是习惯了沉默，习惯了痛，习惯了安静。"

2011-07-22T15:57:00.002+08:00

一天之内，两次感到失落。

因为两个完全不一样的人，但却是因为同样的一件事。

老天让我在同一天内碰到他们两个，却又同时让我知道我不想知道的事实。

哈哈！人生真的很奇妙。

老天，你是在暗示什么吗？

我想我明白了。。。

Day 2,3,4,5

2011-07-12T22:35:00.003+08:00

Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name

I guess it's quite obvious, isn't it? I'm a crazy Twins fan :D

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Refer to my previous blog post

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

I will rub my nose whenever I feel stress. That's why sometimes my nose can be super red. Haha. Oh, and I'm rubbing it right now! Argh, should really try not to do that! My mum said my 毛孔会变粗大if I continue to rub my nose so often. :p

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Refer to my previous blog post.

I got back all my results already. Didn't do well for both sciences :( But math, economics and GP are not that bad :D Jia You jia you! I believe I can do it! :D

2011-07-10T20:39:00.006+08:00

I feel like crying,yes, I guess this is how I feel since this morning. I don't know why but I just feel very depressed all over again. Perhaps it's something to do with my hormones. I have no appetites and it's driving me crazy because I've no mood to study at all. I watched 初恋这件小事 again because I know it will make me cry. I guess I feel a little bit better after I cried.

Perhaps I should write about happy stuff, maybe it will make me feel better too. Angeline, Linda, Yida, Melvin, Linh and I went to watch Yi Jie's concert on Friday night. It was really good! I love Xiao Yang's erhu and dance performance and Yi Jie's dance is really HOT and entertaining! Haha. I think Yi Jie's image is totally ruined! And he was so gay the whole night!

NJCD!

Yesterday's BBQ was alright I guess. Didn't have much opportunity to take photos and Shermain only has oldies songs so we didn't have much songs to choose from for singing. As usual, I was bullied by the guys. I should have chosen truth instead of dare when we were playing truth or dare. They dared me to stuff the noodles into my mouth!! Obviously I won't do that right! After that they used that balloon to hit my head -.- Then that Melvin pulled my chair (but I didn't fall, thank god), almost dragged me into the pool, used satay sticks to poke at my name on the styrofoam board and scolded me at the karaoke room. WTH! I'm such a poor thing right! :( Why I'm always the one being bullied??

PHOTOS

Me and Amie

Me and Linda

Angeline and me

Me and Yi Jie

Me and Liu Tong

The bully and me

Jin Sze and me

And my favourite photo of the day! Me and Shermain :D

I realise I took photos with a lot of NJ chinese dancers :D I love you all!

MUAK MUAK! Haha! :D

I feel much better now :DD

沉默，是代表我真的累了。

Outing with Marilyn

2011-07-04T21:30:00.004+08:00

Miss her a lot! I told her lots of stuff and she shared with me her point of view. I love talking to her, I can tell her everything! I'm glad that I've a friend like her :D

Haha! She don't allow me to post the photos on facebook. Ahyo, but this photo look nice. So chio lor. :D

Haha! And of course, zilian me :D

Watched Treasure Inn after that. The movie is funny and quite okay lar. I think she's the only person who will accompany me to watch Ahsa's movie. I still remember we went to watch Triple Tap last year too. Love you a lot yeah! :D

Day 01- 15 interesting facts about yourself

2011-07-03T23:02:00.003+08:00

I think I'm closer to my friends in NJCD than my friends in class. I guess it's because we've gone through all the ups and downs together and they are the ones who will always be there for me when I'm upset. I grow so close to them that I always dream of them! Haha! I don't know whether things will change after we step down (cos we won't see one another so often), but I will always remember the wonderful time we spent together. Love y'all alot!
I used to be very shy and quiet (of course not in front of friends)
My definition of a friend:
- Able to maintain a conversation when there are only two of us.
- Will sms each other when we have any problems and questions。
- Hang out together even when we are not in school。
- Care about each other.
- Can suan each other without feeling offended.
- Have called each other at least once
- Have taken photos together (and only the two of us)
- Most importantly, we need to like each other! (I think this is obvious because I won't even talk to someone that I dislike)
I rarely talk to guys in my secondary school. And I never have any guy friends until I come to NJC. Told you I'm very shy le! And yeah, they're all from NJCD. Hmm, or maybe I never treat them as guys? Haha.
I used to think that a guy and a girl can never be friend. Haha. But I still think that a guy and a girl can never be BEST friend (unless one of them is not straight:p)
I have low self-confidence and I think I can't do well in everything. Even though I passed my grade 8 piano, I still think that I can't really play piano. Even though I've been dancing since Primary 2, I still think I can't dance well. Oh well, I can be very thick skinned in front of some people also ;D
What is love? I think this is a hard question to answer. I'd asked some people about their opinion about this and the guys think that love = when you've the feeling for that person. Haha. But sometimes, we don't even know whether we have the feeling for that particular person or not and that's why I believe in fate. 有缘的最后一定会走在一起，没有缘分的不管怎么努力都不可能开花结果。So I will wait for my 有缘人. Haha. And no, I'm not desperate okay! This is just what I think.
I'm scared of death. I can't imagine one day I will disappear from this world!
If I'm given a superpower, I will choose to read people's mind. I want to know what people think of me. Actually I asked people about what they think of me before. They said I'm hyper, optimistic, cute(yeah!), funny, hardworking etc. And I'm only hyper in front of y'all, okay!
I'm very indecisive.
我很会同情别人．That's why my parents怕我被人骗．
I wonder who reads my blog. I know some people like to stalk me! Haha. Because I like to stalk y'all too ;D
I'm scared that I will screw up A level. I just hope that I can get As for my 4H2 so that I can get into Accountancy in NTU. But sometimes, I really don't know whether this will be my best option.
I wonder our friendships will last. I believe it will. :D I really hope that what we've said on the MRT will come true. Haha. Imagine our kids become friends too. It will be so cool!
I remember I promised to sleep early, but it's 1am already. The first time I slept super late (at 4am) was because I was talking to somebody on msn. I guess I start to sleep late from then onward. Haha. If you happen to read this (which I believe so since I heard you asking me to blog about blah blah[i forget what you said:p]), don't call me lai yin because it's really your fault! :p

About You 30 Day Challenge

2011-07-02T20:02:00.002+08:00

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Describe your ideal boyfriend
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- What are your hobbies
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

I saw this on tumblr and I think I will do it when I'm free :D

Whee~~

2011-07-01T17:28:00.004+08:00

Yoyoyoyo! Haha! I love the dance hoodie! I have been wearing it almost everyday ever since I got it. :D Oh, and a lot of things happened this week so this might be a long post :D

First of all, common test is OVER! I think I did badly for Physic. I just hope that I won't get single digit for my Paper 2. Yeah, I know it's a bit exaggerated but I really don't know how to do most of the questions. I really don't know how to improve my Physic. Help me!!! Math paper was manageable so I hope I can get an A, if not I think some people will suan me. :( Chem paper was not that bad also lar. :p Overall I think I didn't do very well but I will Jia You and prove to everyone that 我有实力和内涵的! :p

Went ice-skating with Angeline, Linda and Melvin on Wednesday! Whee~ And as usual, somebody was late.-.- All three of them know how to ice skate while I'm the newbie, so the three of them take turns to teach me. At first I didn't even dare to let go of their hands because I scared I would fall.

LOL. Look at how scared I was!

Eventually, I get the hang of it and managed to ice skate without their help :D

Whee~ So cool right!

They told me that usually one needs to fall down first before they really know how to ice skate. Guess what, I fell down after they finished the sentence. Haha. Actually I tried to balance myself but I failed to do so. :( But at least I didn't 跌个狗吃屎。Wahaha.

Yeah, my favourite photo of the day!^^

I won't forget how y'all pushed me, scared me and tickled me while I was still learning how to skate ;p Haha! And I really need to thank y'all for being so patient when y'all were teaching me! Y'all are awesome!! ♥

After ice-skating, we went to KFC to eat our lunch and then Yi Jie joined us at Plaza Singapura. Wah, 难得Yi Jie came out and shopped with us instead of mugging at home :p We wanted to watch 报应 (omg, I went to watch the trailer and it's nice!) but it's not shown in cinema already :( So we decided to shop! I think only Linda and Angeline were seriously looking for things to buy while Yi Jie, Melvin and I were talking about random stuffs and suaning each other. Omg, I admit I really cannot win them lor. The two of them very 牙尖嘴利 and they suan me until I don't know how to react. Oh, and Yi Jie super bad lor. He said he's very tired and sleepy so I said that we should find a place to sit down and rest, but he 恩将仇报 and said I'm an auntie! OMG!! And that Melvin also very bad lor! He said my face is as rough as a patch of grass and keep saying I'm very short. If they continue to describe me like this, I think 我会嫁不出去lor!!Haha!

In the end, we went to McDonald and Yi Jie suggested to play Truth or Dare. -.- I think we got to know more about one another. :D The 'shoot, shag, marry' question is super hard to answer! And someone wants to shoot me! So sad right :( But it's super fun and we were laughing like crazy. Hehe! I think I'm super hyper when I'm with them.

Yeah! I love to take photos, especially with my friends!

I bet they feel super happy to have a friend like me who will always bring camera whenever I'm out with them. ;p

认识你们真好！

就想赖着你

2011-06-24T23:25:00.002+08:00

《就想赖着你》is a Taiwanese drama and it is super nice!I always hate watching 偶像剧 but this one is really good. I love the theme song for this drama too :D

只有我了解这幸福感觉
美得值得去付出一切
能够遇见你认识喜欢你爱上你
感谢我每滴眼泪♥

2011-06-23T01:30:00.002+08:00

Some random stuff:

Fall in love with SHE's songs :D
Feel like going Kbox leh! Hehe :D
I wanna watch 财神客栈！
I wonder when is our next dance practice (is that even one for the SH2?)
I should sleep early...
I've been dreaming the same thing for the past three days.

2011-06-20T00:04:00.003+08:00

Saw this on tumblr and I totally agree with it.

I really hate people who don't reply my sms. They can just ignore my message even though they know I'm waiting for an answer from them. The feeling is really bad because it means that they just don't care about me. I still remember one of my friends in secondary school ALWAYS ignore my message whenever I need her help. Yeah, this kind of friendship won't last long. And guess what, she's my best friend since primary three. I cared about her and really treated her as my best friend but I guess she didn't feel the same way. The friendship ended after O level, after I thought through it very carefully. I don't want to be hurt by her again. So I guess that's why whenever people don't reply my message, I will feel sad and depress. :( I will think that they just don't care about me, or they just don't treat me as a friend. (OMG, I think I sound like a primary school kid)

Haiz. I think I meet this kind of people again. Yeah, you said you didn't receive my message and showed me your mailbox, but the message is there and it is marked as 'read'. My heart sank when I saw it but I acted as though it didn't really bother me. I tried to believe you but whenever I message you, you either reply with a few words or don't reply. Sorry, I know I'm too sensitive but I think you just find me very irritating and perhaps not a good friend to you since you don't seems to care. Of course I will think positively too, maybe it's because you really don't have much things to say etc but the feeling really sucks.

我不想一次又一次的受伤害。

我不喜欢好朋友慢慢的疏远我，远离我。

我不喜欢在我最需要朋友的时候，他们不在我身边。

我讨厌想起以前我们在一起开心快乐的时候，因为现在再也不能拥有那段时光了。

既然不能好好的维持这段友情，那当初就不要对我那么好。

就算现在会那么冷淡，疏远，你也应该给我个理由吧。。。

有时，我真的不知道如果我知道快乐后面的代价是如此的痛苦，我还会不会做出同样的决定。。。

No, I'm not emoing. Really! Just wanna write down how I feel. I know there are a lot of people who love me!

时间回不到最开始的地方（写给看不开的人）

2011-06-18T20:02:00.004+08:00

对于已经错过的一些东西，或许不用再试着去挽留，错了就错了，

这个世界上对和错、得与失永远是五五开的机率。

无论你做了怎么样的选择和要走怎么样的路都一定会在将来后悔，

因为每一样我们失去的东西总会有我们想要留下和值得缅怀的地方。

错过了也没什么，哪个人的一生永远会得到又不曾失去，

想要重新找回你已经失去了的东西，

或许你能够挽回一些什么，或许你也能够得到一些安慰，

可是你挽回的一定不会是你曾经失去了的。

太多我们很在乎的事情总是在我们的意料之外，而又往往让我们感觉力不从心。

我们不能使自己想要的会永远在我们身边。人生有太多的不确定，

所有的一切在时间面前都是不堪一击的脆弱，包括生命、情感。

于是有英雄末路，于是有曲终人散。有一些情感，过去了也就变了，

某些人可以让我们刻苦铭心，某些事可以让我们终生难忘，

可是我们都变了，回不去了，再苦苦找寻，剩下的不过是个遗憾，

并不是每个人每件事付出了都会有结果的，有些事总是看不到希望，甚至是不知道有没有开始

不能成功没有关系，看不到希望也没有关系，但是你相信有希望吗？你相信一切都会好吗？

不管怎么样，对于得到，我们都应该充满感激，不管得到的是什么，起码我们经历过，

对于我们把握不住人或事也不必太感慨，失去了便失去了，

谁能保证那本该是属于你的，有些东西原本就是让你牵挂而不是获取的。

世界变了，难忘的人，做过的梦，有过的期待，走过的路，有一些自己认为该珍惜的，

现在又如何呢？是不是这世上的事本来就是经不起时间的等待的，曾以为自己会为

一个人难过很久，曾以为自己会真的放不下一些东西，那么现在又是如何呢？

原来开始新的日子，学会忘记，就那么简单，

原来是当年我们还太年轻，总是很感性，总是宁愿守住一个人一件事不舍得放手，

但还是长大了，不是吗？还是学会，怎么一个人也要好好活着不是吗？

还是一步一步的走下来了，不是吗？所有的事都在过去，不是吗？有一个词叫曾经，不是吗？

http://blog.renren.com/getentry.do?id=728516008&owner=272098826

在人人网上看到这个。非常认同，感觉是我的心声！:D 不要误会，我的心情可是非常好的~ 只是觉得他所写的跟我的观念很相像:D

2011-06-16T14:43:00.002+08:00

Hahaha! Whenever I look at that photo, I will laugh nonstop. Hahaha! I don't know why but I just cannot stop laughing!!That photo really make my day! Miss them so much! But at least I met up with Linda and Xixi these few days. Oh, and the hoodies are here! Hope I can wear it during CT!

Dance Camp 2011

2011-06-09T17:49:00.004+08:00

I really enjoyed this year's dance camp :D I think the camp really make me become a more out-going and fun person. I used to be very shy in front of people whom I'm not very familiar with and I won't take the initiative to talk to them. But now, I can easily get along well with them :D And yup, I think I'm the craziest and most high and talkative person in dance now. Haha. Sorry, but I really cannot control myself. I just love to talk to all the awesome and wonderful dancers and to liven up the mood by cracking jokes and to be 厚脸皮. I used to show this side of me only in front of my close friends, but I guess I'm so close with my dear dancers that everyone of them now know the crazy side of me. :p But I want to say that I can be very 温柔，安静，淑女，贤淑，秀气 etc also de!! All the three guys keep saying that I don't have these qualities! But it's because I'm so close with you all and feel so comfortable around with you all that I think I can just show you all my crazy side. (My class guys think I'm super quiet) Ya, so this is really my true personality. I like to talk and have fun with the people I love. I guess everyone has this crazy and talkative side and it really depends on to whom they show it to. So this means that I really love you all!

Day 1 of Dance Camp

We had three hours of dance practice and Wulaoshi taught us new combinations for cross floor. During one of the breaks, some of us started playing 九九乘法表. Haha! It was fun! After that Wulaoshi taught us 4 eights of 风韵 and the SH2 learnt it quite fast. So while the rest were practicing the movements, I walked around and chatted with Xixi, Kailing, Linda, Angeline, Amie and even Wulaoshi. Haha. He told us about his "想当年~" :p

After that we played Jun He's game and I was in the same group as Yida and Linda. We won in the end but we were forced to torture the losing group :p

LOL. There are lots of unglam photos of me on facebook now. Haha. Cos I was laughing like crazy when I was feeding them the ice-cream.

I was in the same group as Kelly, Sherilyn, Hui Shan and Cuong and they are so cute and chatty! :D I thought Kelly is those quiet type de but we can talk about random stuff together. Sherilyn is super funny and cute, Hui Shan a bit blur blur de but she's cute too. And Cuong can be super enthu and high :D

♥ my Group a lot! We can laugh like crazy de lor!

Station games were quite okay. I took a lot of photos with Jin Sze and Xixi they all :D

♥♥♥

Poor Nhat! So this is why he didn't come on the second day? LOL.

Haha! Rachel so cute :D (I think all my juniors are very cute)

I was in charge of the newspaper station too.(Last year tammy's station) I was able to enjoy the air-con, so shuang right! I think I'm a noob. I couldn't open the DS1 door so Wulaoshi helped me. After that I couldn't switch on the air-con so wls helped me again :p

Took photos while waiting for the groups to come :D

I was super tired lor. My legs were aching like crazy but I think it's worth it :D

Day 2 of dance camp

I think day 2 is more fun and interesting! Started with makeup lessons and I think the some of the juniors are better than us lor. So while they were putting makeup on each other's face, I took out my camera and took lots of photos! I admit I'm a bit zi lian lar but I like to take photos because it will be a 美好的回忆. When we get older, we cannot possibility remember everything we did in the past, so photos will be the best way to record down those wonderful memories we shared.

Haha! I love this photo because I'm the tallest!

Hehe! I love Xixi's hair! SO pretty :D

♥♥♥

Omg! I'm so short! Haha. But yeah, I enjoy talking to these three guys even though they always bully me! You all are awesome :D

Yida, Melvin and me went to paste the clues at CO store and squash court but the clues at CO store disappeared near the end of the amazing race! And we had so much fun thinking about the general knowledge questions!

Amie and my station was fun! The juniors answers were so funny.

Amie: "What is Xiayin's surname?"

Sherilyn: "No surname!!"

Me : -.-"

Melvin: "她从石头里出来的!"

Q: "How old is Huang lao shi?"

A: "65!" (-.-") [He is only 56 lar]

After all of them cleared my station, I went to the other stations.

Yi Jie's station! Wah, reading newspaper somemore!

Evelyn, Angeline and Amie's station. I love balloons :D

Melvin's station!

And last but not least, our group photos!

We wrote notes for each other and it was fun reading their notes. So basically they think that I'm awesome, wonderful, funny, cute and great senior who like to camwhore! :D So they love me a lot too :D Yeah, I really have lots of fun with everyone of you! Love everyone of you ♥

This is a super long post! :D

XOXO

2011-06-05T22:45:00.002+08:00

I miss NJCD already! I'm looking forward to dance camp because I know I will have a lot of fun with all the dancers :D I should summarized what I've done this week.

Went to school to attend extra lessons
Dance stuff (DSA + dance camp preparation)
Went to Tea Party Cafe with Angeline and Linda :D
Flipped through some of my physic, chem and math notes.
Painted my nails :D
Facial!
Went to library to borrow books
Sleep like a pig because I'm sick :(
Watch HK drama and movies

Actually I did nothing much. My life is so boring without dance :( Planned to go out with Marilyn but she had extra lesson so I can only meet up with her next week. I want to go out with the dancers leh! I want to go Kbox, cycling, swimming, studying and just anything as long as I'm going out with them :D Touch right :)

2011-06-04T16:32:00.002+08:00

Headache, sore throat and flu! I've been sleeping all day but my headache is getting worse. Hope that I will get well before dance camp!

There are lots of pretty pictures on tumblr!

2011-06-02T21:19:00.003+08:00

慢慢才知道,太在乎别人了往往会伤害自己；

慢慢才知道,对自己好的人会随着时间流逝越来越少；

慢慢才知道,很多东西是可遇而不可求的,很多东西只能拥有一次；

慢慢才知道,真心对一个人好不一定有回报,而你忽略的人往往可能最重视你；

慢慢才知道,原来现实如此的无奈；慢慢才知道,自己长大了。

So true!

Update

2011-05-30T21:07:00.002+08:00

Okay, since Evelyn asked me to update my blog, I shall do so. :p

SISC closing ceremony performance

I was the first to reach the school so I went to dance store to pack the costumes for Wu lao shi and shun bian wait for the rest to come. Melvin reached few minutes later and Angeline was the third to reach. While waiting for Evelyn and Amie to walk to the dance store, we started to gossip and talk about random stuff. Amie and Evelyn overheard what we said and started to 想歪歪。

Here is the conversation:

Me (to melvin)：eh, 你知道吗？那天我做angeline and A***** 的电灯泡leh!

Melvin : 他们做什么?Kiss ah?

Me: 没有，他们舌吻。(LOL)

I guess that two girls only heard 'Kiss' and '舌吻' and they were like O.o and they secretly stood outside the dance store to listen to our funny conversation.

Melvin yawned.

Me：eh, 你很恶心leh! 都露肚子了lor. 还露裤子,eyer!!

Melvin: what? 我这样是你赚到,ok! 我很吃亏leh!

Me: Eyer, 屁lor. 我要长针眼le!

And the two girls only hear "露肚子" and "露裤子" so they continue to 想歪歪... Haha. They burst out into laughter when they walked into the dance store and the three of us were like o.O.

(Haha! Hope what I wrote above will entertain my readers :D )

After that I continue to be high and talk non stop. I told them it's because I stayed at home the whole day and hadn't been talking for a few days. But they didn't seem to believe me. :p

The instructors came after we finished our warm up. Wu lao shi cut his hair while Miss Ng was in a bad mood. :( I told Xixi that it's hard to understand what a woman is thinking. Sometimes, we just like to be be alone and don't want anybody to disturb us, while sometimes, we desperately want to seek attention and want people to talk to us, comfort us when we are upset. Haha. So it's really hard for us to decide whether to talk to Miss Ng or just leave her alone. In the end, we decided to leave her alone since she was busy using her handphone.

After dance practice, we went to Curry Wok to have our lunch. I sat with Amie, Yida, Wu lao shi and Melvin. I think the four of us (A, Y, M, me) always have lots of fun gossiping, laughing and enjoying ourselves together :D I think Wu lao shi also couldn't stand us le. :p

After lunch, we went back to DS2 and started doing our hair and makeup. I think I can draw eyeshadow pretty well le :D After everything was done, I took out my camera and started to take photos of the dancers and myself. :D

Evelyn, Angeline and me :D

With Wu lao shi!

Our guys! Without Yijie :(

With xiao ming (Shermain), Yin ting, Lukhei and Lydia :D

Tada!! Me :D

Math Remedial + DSA

Math Remedial from 9am to 12 noon. I was supposed to meet Angeline at 12 noon but her lesson ended at 1pm instead. My friends went to AMK to eat their lunch, the rest were all with their friends, so I stoned outside the library for half an hour. Thanks Yvonne for entertaining me (sms me) when I was stoning there. While that stupid Melvin were busy comparing his Chinese exam answers with liu lao shi outside GO. :p Liu laoshi complained to me that she didn't eat anything because she was so busy this morning dealing with the students. :p

After DSA, Wu lao shi and the teachers-in-charge locked themselves up in DS2 to discuss about stuff while Yida, Evelyn, Angeline and I were forced to wait outside (because our bags were inside). We started to play heart attack (super fun lor) and truth or dare. Haha! We had so much fun lor!

After that, Wu lao shi and I took the same bus home. Oh, and we talked a lot on the bus. Haha. I think I'm the only person who will ask him all those funny questions. And guess what? He asked me "你们会想我的，对不对。" TWICE! Haha! Then I replied, "应该是你会想我们多过我们想你吧!" :p

Wah! Finally finished updating my blog!! :D

Last performance~

2011-05-29T09:44:00.002+08:00

It was our last performance! I will miss all the awesome time spent with every one of you! Thanks for making my last performance such a wonderful one. ♥ all of you loads!
Omg, we are so pretty and handsome right! Wahahaha :D

♥ the EXCO lots too! XOXO

2011-05-27T22:17:00.002+08:00

Hehe! Finally GP and economic CT are over! Whee~ And I'm super happy because there is dance tomorrow! I really miss everyone a lot, and I miss wu lao shi and Miss Ng also. Haha. I still remember last Saturday, on the bus, Wu laoshi asked me whether we will miss them after we step down. And before I could even answer, he said, "一定会想我的，对不对?" Hahaha! And I was like (-.-") "Yayayaya!" :p

And dance really make me forget about all the unhappiness and stress, I can get really high and crazy during dance. That's why Wu laoshi and Miss Ng always disagree when I say I'm very shy and quiet. I think I have no 形象 in front of them. Oh, and that day Wu laoshi called me and I was a bit shocked. But he made my day because he encouraged me when I complained to him that I was very stress over CT. He is really a very caring and nice instructor :D

2011-05-25T22:11:00.002+08:00

Aristal :D

2011-05-21T23:28:00.002+08:00

I love this year's Aristal even though there are so many dance practices the week before. I guess it's because I'm dancing with a group of awesome dancers and of course because I can finally dance the SYF item in front of so many people :D I really love the SYF dance and I want to show everyone that our dance is superb :D

Met up with Esther and Melvin at AMK mrt and took the train to Clementi. I guess we were quite noisy but we had a lot of fun :p We squeezed out a guy from the train and he almost fell onto the ground. Hahaha. It was super funny but embarrassing at the same time.

Xixi, angeline and me were supposed to iron the SYF pants but the three of us don't know how to iron clothes (-.-), so the future househusband volunteered to iron it for us. And therefore, I had the opportunity to go into their room :p

While Yida was ironing the pants, the other guys started making the gifts for the girls. Very sweet right! Actually I know they will be giving us things since Melvin kept threatening me that I would regret if I continued to squeeze his bag (-.-)

The guys were all busy doing their work, so I took out my camera and started taking photos :D But of course most of the time I was helping Yida lar.

LOL. And this photo of Yijie is super funny lar!

I think the first two rehearsal were not that good because my performance was not up to standard. :( Wu laoshi said it's 心理作用, but I just couldn't overcome it during the two rehearsals. I practiced the same movement over and over again but I guess it made me feel more nervous. Oh, and that stupid Melvin slapped me with his fan just before 扇韵，I was so angry that I wanna kill him on the spot! 男人不可以打女人！

The dinner provided was much better than the lunch. As usual, I gave my vegetable to other dancers like Lovel and she gave me the fish! :D

Love all the SYF dancers! We've been through all the ups and downs and I really treasure the time we spend together. I think we did pretty well, at least I was stable and didn't lost balance. :D

扇韵 was not bad too! Even though I'm not very close to some of the JH and SH1 but I still love them :D And I hope they will love NJCD as much as the SH2 :D I still remember the reason why I join NJCD is because the seniors are super friendly and adorable. I hope they think the same way as me too. Haha. I know I can be quite shy in front of them but I'm very friendly de hoh!

Finally a photo with wu laoshi and Miss Ng :D
Last but not least, I need to thank all my friends and classmates who came down to support me! Love the flowers and love all of you a lot:D

Twins成立10周年

2011-05-17T19:11:00.003+08:00

宝贝Twins成立10周年了！从6年级第一次听到她们的华语歌开始，我便喜欢上她们！喜欢她们因为她们很可爱但不做作，喜欢她们的笑容，喜欢她们那带着广东腔的华语，喜欢她们的真诚，喜欢她们之间的友情，喜欢听她们的歌，喜欢看她们的电影。每当我最伤心难过的时候，只要听着她们的歌，我的心情就会好起来。这些年来，都是她们陪着我成长，陪我经历那些愉快或伤心的时光。很多时候，她们就是我的动力，我的榜样，因为不管发生什么事，她们都会坚强地挨过！

当年喜欢她们是因为听了她们的第一张国语专辑。

喜欢她们的自然，不做作

喜欢她们的可爱

就算她们各自发生了很多不开心的事，她们还是很好很好的朋友:D

Twins:D

2011-05-17T17:35:00.000+08:00

习惯

2011-05-15T23:13:00.005+08:00

越来越习惯晚睡了，就算没有事情做，就算第二天要早起，就算晚睡对皮肤不好，我还是已经习惯了。慢慢的，我也习惯那忽冷忽热的态度，习惯了那重新建起来的围墙，习惯了那漂浮的眼神，习惯了那种冷漠。也许表面上还是一样，但是事实是，什么都变了。也许太敏感了，不过人的第六感都很准的吧。人生就像是过山车一样有上有下，所以凡事都要珍惜眼前最快乐的时光。我从来都没有后悔做任何决定，不，也许有，但是毕竟我已经开心过了，不是吗？该做的都做了，该努力的也努力过了，所以只能接受命运了吧。

我还是要继续努力，努力地去习惯那一切一切，因为我知道我还是没有习惯。如果真得习惯了的话，我就不会晚睡了吧。哈，人生就是那么复杂。但是如果没有这些酸甜苦辣，人生不就是平淡无奇了吗？

2011-05-09T22:07:00.002+08:00

My parents think that I'm spending too much time on dance. They scare that I will not be able to catch up with my studies and have been nagging about it since the end of SYF. I told them I will be fine but actually I'm starting to worry about it too. Haiz... I really think I cannot cope with my studies anymore. I don't understand a single thing about physic and I have no time to complete my chemistry tutorial. I have no time to study for my physic test and math tutorial seems to be hard too. Everything is piling up and this time, it is worse than the SYF period. People are telling me that they feel the same way as me and they are doing worse than me, but it doesn't make me feel any better. I've high expectation for myself and when I fail to do it, I will just feel more demoralized.

This few weeks will be super busy for me. I hope I can survive these few weeks... Haiz...

Post SYF celebration!

2011-05-08T20:29:00.002+08:00

We went to sentosa yesterday! Yida look like a tourist! Haha! And they said I look like a HK movie star :D Played Daidi with Melvin, Angeline and linda and I think my skill is improving! Wu laoshi said we are gamblers because the four of us played non-stop (Xixi, Yida, Nhat and Amie joined in for a while too). :pLOL. This picture is funny.

The son, the father and the grandfather. ^.^

Wu laoshi and me :D

Miss Ng, hot sia :D Haha!

2011-05-05T23:29:00.002+08:00

伤心的时候，应该想想那些在你身边逗你开心的人。

他们也许不是你最好的朋友，不过，他们一定是值得你珍惜的人。

2011-05-05T22:35:00.002+08:00

Just feel so depressed these few days...Everything is just not going right! Yeah, I agree my mood is just like a sine curve, but it is going down everyday.

也许每个人以为我是个很开朗的人，

也许每个人以为我是个傻大姐，

也许每个人以为我无忧无虑，

也许每个人以为我很开心。。。

因为我喜欢开玩笑，我喜欢酸别人，我喜欢说话，

但是，很多时候，我这么做只是想让自己和周围的人快乐一点罢了。

有时候，我自己都不知道我什么时候是在发自内心的笑。

有时，我真的很想回到过去。

那段时间是我最开心的时候。

现在，感觉什么都不一样了。。。

2011-05-04T21:55:00.002+08:00

我只能说我太高估自己了。。。

满脸笑容的背后，有可能是颗受伤的心。

2011-05-01T18:00:00.001+08:00

2011-04-30T23:39:00.001+08:00

原来时间真的可以冲淡一切。。。

2011-04-30T15:39:00.001+08:00

2011-04-28T18:35:00.001+08:00

好朋友的特点：

1.好朋友就是经常叫你“去死吧”的那些人；

2.好朋友就是老是说你有病叫你看医生的那些人；

3.好朋友就是抓住你的一个缺点说上半天的那些人；

4.好朋友就是在你面前肆无忌惮地说很难听的话的那些人；

5.好朋友就是说要拉大队去你学校把你吃穷的那些人。

2011-04-26T22:34:00.002+08:00

Spent the half day meaningfully with three awesome people :D I didn't expect so much. I thought I will probably go home after lessons and do all those boring stuff (e.g. do homework, use computer, sleep, eat alone, stone). Haha. Gossip and talk about a lot of random things and I had a great time laughing at our weird ideas and jokes. We went to National Library to study and I finished studying my math (actually I just read through the notes)! We did all sort of crazy stuff and laughed like siao. Haha! Actually I was not in a good mood today but they really cheered me up! :D

2011-04-24T16:57:00.003+08:00

I don't know what's wrong with you. Is it because of your own mood swing or is it because of what I said? I really hate it when people log off in the midst of a conversation.

2011-04-24T10:51:00.000+08:00

"If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place."

2011-04-23T20:48:00.002+08:00

Seriously don't feel like doing any homework now.

Flipped open my nuclear physic tutorial, read the questions, *I think I don't know how to do*, put it aside.

Then I flipped open my nitrogen compound notes, try to study a bit, *it just can't get into my brain*, put it aside.

Flipped open my econ workbook, stared at the case study for a while, *sian, don't feel like writing*, put it aside.

Flipped open my vector notes and try to study, *damn, I feel like using the computer*, put it aside and start using the computer.

Haiz... How? Totally no mood to study. :(

2011-04-22T14:43:00.001+08:00

突然有种莫名的失落感。。。

2011-04-22T11:47:00.004+08:00

I just want to say that I love NJCD a lot. All the NJ chinese dancers are so awesome :D

They are the people who will be there for me when I'm sad or feel depressed.

They are the people who will give me gifts and notes to encourage me.

They are the people who will give me a hug when I feel stress.

They are the people who will be there to comfort and care about me when I injured myself.

They are the people who will laugh, gossip, complain, eat and do all sorts of fun things together.

Without them, my life will be as plain and boring as a piece of white paper.

Without them, I will not know that there are so many people who care about me.

Without them, I might not smile as often as now.

Without them, I might have suffered from depression.

All the notes on facebook are really touching. What Su laoshi wrote on facebook make me feel like crying too.

"U guys make wonders during the central judging... With tat little amount of time n training, u guys did great on stage. Especially on the same stage dancing among other sch with such strong dancers, I honestly felt that u all have go beyond what you all have achieved in this SYF. Do hope u guys will keep that in mind n be proud of urself, U ppl ve concurred ur limitations n overcome the odds in this process of SYF. U all will be a great example for me to remember, learn from n to tell my students how you guys make wonders against all odds. Well done once again for your SYF central judging ^_^ jia you jia you."

Yes, we should feel satisfied because it is not easy to get a gold. Within such a short period of time, we can overcome all the obstacles and shine on the stage. I'm so proud of ourselves. I really enjoy the three months with all the SYF dancers as well as Wu lao shi and Miss Ng.

我觉得自己好幸福！每当伤心难过时，都有一群人陪我，开解我，关心我。没有你们，就没有现在的我。能认识你们，真的是一种缘分。地球上有多少亿的人，我们却能相遇，并且成为好朋友，一起努力，一起奋斗。‘爱’这个字，我是很少说出口的，但是对你们，我却可以大声的说：“我爱你们！”这种友情是很少见的，以后我们踏入社会后，就很难遇到这种知己了。所以我们要好好珍惜剩下的时间。

今年，我最开心和最伤心的时候都是跟你们一起度过的。一起跳‘踏青’，一起去唱卡拉OK唱到喉咙哑掉，一起在星期六中午吃午餐，一起去看舞蹈表演，一起跳‘行云书画’，一起high，一起哭，难过时却一起大声笑。真的，每当我伤心时，看见你们我的心情就会好起来。

当然，最重要的还有两个老师：吴老师和伍老师。吴老师虽然看起来大大咧咧的，但是他却很细心，很关心我们。伍老师很可爱，很爱笑，她灿烂的笑容很有感染力。两个都是很棒很棒的老师，没有他们，就没有今天的我们。

To all NJ Chinese Dancers: I LOVE YOU :D

2011-04-17T10:52:00.002+08:00

I feel so stress these few days. Everything is piling up and I feel so lost. How? I think I can't handle stress, it just makes me 喘不过气。我的状况真的很差。大腿又开始痛了，I scare I can't stand up again. Haiz... Arghhh!

有时真的很想逃避现实，

很想躲在一个没有人知道的地方哭，

我不想面对这个世界，

不想面对我不想见的东西。

很想开心的大笑，

因为想忘掉所有的不开心，所有的压力，所有的烦恼。

2011-04-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

Guess what, I played piano today! I think I stopped playing after my grade 8 piano exam last year (which is around September). I was trying to see whether I still know how to play piano or not :p I was surprised that I can still play it pretty well :D Okay, I think I'm super random. I need to sleep now, if not I think I will probably fall asleep during math lecture tomorrow!

2011-04-10T11:21:00.003+08:00

I just feel so stress suddenly. The first thing on my mind when I woke up today was "OMG, I've a lot of things to do and I'm so so stress!" May will be a super busy month for me. Haiz... I really got a lot of things to do! Starting to feel depressed again. I shouldn't think so much. 顺其自然bah!

NJCD

2011-04-09T17:31:00.003+08:00

Went to xing wang with Melvin, Angeline and linda to have our lunch yesterday. Angeline and I shared a plate of fried rice and dumpling! Yummy :D

Reached school at 3.30pm and wls and some of them were already there. The 4 of us plus yijie went to the gym to set up the speaker and radio. I was bored so I took out my camera and started taking lots of photos. After that, Melvin used my camera to take unglam shot of everyone -.- But some of the photos are quite blurred. :(

Haha! Love this photo!

After trying three times, Melvin finally took an "unblurred" photo of us :D

♥

Today's dance practice was tiring. And I got a lot more bruises than before. After dance practice, we went to Golden Rooster to eat our lunch. We had a lot of fun joking and laughing at random stuff. LOL. I really love NJCD a lot :D

2011-04-06T23:21:00.002+08:00

I agree with what Wu lao shi told me today. Sometimes, we can't expect everyone to do things in our way. The most important thing is that everyone is doing their parts.

I think I'm starting to emo again. Sometimes, I really feel very down and upset even though nothing really happen. How? I think I'm giving myself too much stress. Perhaps a bit too much for me to handle. Just feel like crying without any reason and just feel like emoing at one corner. I'm not satisfied with myself. I just think that I'm not doing that great. Haiz... Wu laoshi told me that stress might be a force to push us forward but too much stress will just make the situation worse. Yes, I think I should control myself, I should be satisfied with my small improvement after each practice. I should not have such a high expectation of myself because 期望越大，失望也越大。I really hate myself now because I should not break down at this point time. I should (and need to) stay strong!

2011-04-03T17:57:00.002+08:00

Sneezing like crazy and is having a headache now. :( This is all because I slept at 4am and woke up at 9.30am today.Yeah, I know it sounds a bit crazy because everyone knows I usually sleep at 10-11pm. And I didn't really do anything at all. NO, I wasn't doing homework and I wasn't watching any movies or drama. Was just listening to the music and chatting online. Never sleep so 'early' before, but it's definitely a cool and fun experience :D

Oh, and I spent quite some time writing the dance reflection. So I should go and do my homework now... :p

2011-04-03T02:44:00.001+08:00

有时候真的不知道怎么安慰别人，
感觉不管说什么都不对，
不想越说越错，不想伤害到你，不想让你觉得我很烦。
也许你只想要一个能倾听你烦恼的人，
不过身为朋友，真的不希望你难过，生气，不开心。。。
希望陪你聊天可以让你忘掉不开心的。。。

Pretty pictures

2011-04-01T21:41:00.004+08:00

Start to use tumblr because of Esther and Annabel. OMG, and I think I'm addicted to it as well. So many pretty and cute pictures!

I tell myself to stop thinking about it, but I guess it is difficult.

I don't know what will happen next...

2011-03-29T22:55:00.002+08:00

I can't dance for the whole week! It's so sad right! Haiz... I hate my legs, especially when my left thigh was so pain that i need 15 min to stand up after a tutorial. Hope it will get better soon!

So I watched the whole SYF dance thrice today. The first run was really very bad. Movements are not synchronized (even though we practice a lot of times) and the feeling, mood and expressions were all not there. Of course the second and third time were much better...

Some of them said they will do their best, put in 100% of their effort, will practice their movements, will remember what we have 雕 and ask questions when they have doubts, but I think i didn't see it today. I was a bit disappointed at first but they did put in more efforts when they were dancing the 2nd and 3rd times. But we can definitely do much better than that.

Haiz... Quarrel, quarrel, quarrel! I hate quarreling! Don't really want to disturb you but you really make me feel very angry. So I'm irritating lar! Oh and don't use those words to describe me ever again!

2011-03-25T22:49:00.003+08:00

I couldn't stand up after my math tutorial today. My left thigh was super pain, it was so pain that I cried. I was so scared. I scared I can't dance tomorrow. My friends went to borrow the wheelchair for me but I felt so weird sitting on it because I think it's AA. And since I can still walk after resting for a while, I asked them to return the wheelchair. I really want to thank all my friends for comforting and caring about me! I love you all :D

I was suppose to see the doctor tonight but the clinic was closed. So I guess I will go on Sunday. Hope I can still dance tomorrow, I don't want to 连累 the rest. But of course at the same time I need to take good care of myself. Haiz...

2011-03-24T22:04:00.002+08:00

Opps, I think I'm just having mood swing. Sorry for making so many people worried about me! Love you all :D It's just some people's attitude that make me feel so irritated. I'm feeling much better now. :D

2011-03-24T21:03:00.002+08:00

超级不爽ing。

有时候你真的很讨厌。

我觉得自己很傻，很天真。

也许你没有觉得怎样，不过你真的惹到我了！

2011-03-22T21:53:00.001+08:00

喜欢被关心的感觉:D

2011-03-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

有时我真的不知道我要什么。。。

2011-03-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

所以我的感觉是对的。。。

应该是当局者清吧！

2011-03-19T16:57:00.002+08:00

Thursday's dance practice was super tiring! But like what I had written on my facebook status, I felt happy too because I think we improved a lot (even though there are a lot to improve on). I'm glad that we didn't waste these 4 days and laoshi's effort! We still have one more month, so jia you NJCD :D

Oh, and wls commented on my facebook status! I was super happy because he rarely comment on other people's status! Oh, and I remember that day he 模仿 how the aristal group 进场, and I was telling Liutong how cute his action was. Then he saw me laughing and thought I was laughing at his action then i said "没有，我觉得你的动作很可爱." Haha! I think he was a bit paiseh. :p But really very cute mah, like bunny. :p

Yesterday we went to deyi sec for the combine practice. I think it is much better than the previous combine practice :D The we walked to a coffee shop to dabao our lunch. On the way there we chat about a lot of stuff and it's fun mocking Yijie and Yida, especially the Mr Lim and Mrs Lim part. ;p

After the whole thing, we went to AMK hub to eat our dinner. Almost all of us ordered dessert first! Then Yida, Melvin and I started to chat about some weird stuff and the guys have totally different opinion as me! I think I'm those very traditional girl, unlike them who are so open. :p But it's fun to exchange our opinion and know more about one another :p After that went to arcade for a while and I played one of the games. Then I had my dinner at Mac (feel so fat) and reached home at 9pm! I really enjoy spending time with the dancers, and I start to miss the full day dance practice already! And the next dance practice is on Tuesday so I still need to wait for 2 more days! :(

2011-03-16T21:14:00.003+08:00

OMG! I saw Mr Lee today! He was walking right in front of me and there was only two of us! I'm wondering whether he will ever come back to teach us or not. I guess he will not because it will be hard for him to face his students and colleagues after this incident. Oh, and I guess I cannot get along well with NJ's PE teachers. First, it is Mr Lee, then today I was scolded by this PE teacher. I was carrying this box and a plastic bag, then I was using the handphone. I saw no one along the corridor outside the boy's toilet lor. But they told me I knocked into this female PE teacher and she was angry because I didn't apologise or something. I was like @.@. I didn't even realise that I knocked into someone. I don't even know there was someone there! If I know, I confirm will 闪开and will apologise. So I apologised but she still seemed to be unhappy about me. But what you want me to do? Haiz... I guess she has pms or something :p

Anyway, I think today's dance is quite tiring. I don't even feel like doing my homework now. I was watching the videos that I took during today's lunch break just now. It was super funny :D I really enjoy spending time with them because we can gossip, chat, 酸 one another and joke around like close friends. I think we are getting more bonded now :D So Jia You NJCD! I'm sure we can do it!

JinSze, Xixi and me! The photographer is super lousy.

I love this photo! Very nice right! :D

The main focus is wls. He looked into the camera some more! Haha!

I should end my post with a picture of my blue blacks!

2011-03-15T20:59:00.003+08:00

http://www.formspring.me/XiaYin

I'm bored. Haha. I don't feel like doing homework at all. Ask me any questions! :p

Wah seh, today we all damn pissed off because someone didn't come for dance and didn't inform us the reason. We called him for 50plus times but he didn't pick up his phone. In the end, he said that he overslept. WTH! Overslept for 11 hours leh! Everyone was worried about him lor! *Angry* He is super irresponsible. Wu laoshi was super unhappy with his attitude already. If you really love dance and care about NJCD, you won't be so irresponsible of your own action. I really cannot stand it, it was not his first time already. Haiz....

2011-03-13T23:11:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of explaining...

Please, it's very clear and simple but all of you make it so complicated.

Please don't distract me anymore, just let me carry on with my life.

I just want to be happy. And it's just a simple wish...